LYLS Chapter 12 - Arrival

So Much Fun

"I looked up and saw a blur of movement that stilled into Alice, standing in front of me, bouncing and clapping her hands. 'You guys are having so much fun!' I looked at Edward and we both laughed at her statement. It hadn't been a question.

'We have.' I agree, smiling and hugging her. The rest of the family filed into the kitchen, smiling at me, giving me hugs before turning their eyes to Edward. A silence swept over the room. Edward was learning against the counter, the heel of each of his hands resting on the edge of the counter on either side of his waist, one leg crossed over the casually. His hair was, if possible, messier than usual. His eyes gleamed. A smile played on his lips as he listened to his family react to the scene around them....

Rosalie let out a dry laugh. 'Who would have guessed getting laid would have such an impact on Edward? Certainly not me.' Her voice dripping with sarcasm, but her eyes were soft, smiling. Emmett laughed next to her, nodding.

Esme defended Edward quietly, staring at him lovingly. 'I think it's more than that, Rosalie.'

'It is.' Jasper breathed. 'It's...unbelievable.'...

I suddenly saw Edward through his family's eyes. I realized how calm he was. He had been like that ever since our first morning here; I suppose I had stopped noticing it. With the exception of a few difficult moments, his eyes were always relaxed now, crinkling with an almost constant smile. His brooding was no longer dark, but instead thoughtful; he seemed more quirky and observant than morose and tortured. His quiet demeanor hadn't disappeared, but the quality had changed. His thoughtful posture was confident, relaxed, sexy."

 The Yacht via gkkmouse

"I turned to Alice. 'Where did you even have space in your luggage for a karaoke machine anyway?' I asked, totally confused.

Alice looked at me was though I was very slow. 'What do you mean, Bella? We brought the boat.' She walked me to the window and pointed to the large vessel moored to the dock down the beach. I groaned. Of course they would have a gigantic yacht at their disposal."

Just watch this and picture Emmett, Jasper & Edward...boys will always be boys

"...They emerged from the room in shorts, all shirless, each with one of my shirts tied over their heads like scarves.

'What the...?' Rosalie laughed. Alice and I stared at them, our mouths gaping open. They looked ridiculous."

We know the girls did much better than the boys - more like the real thing

"All three girls leaned into the microphone singing, sultry, 'Emmett, can you handle this? Jasper, can you handle this? Edward can you handle this? I don't think you can handle this! Whoo!' At the last sound they all threw their backs to us, shaking their hips, revealing three of the skimpiest bikinis I had ever seen. The sight was...indescribable, and I was struck, once again, knowing Bella would be exponentially more stunning once she had changed. The thought made me almost dizzy with desire. She was too much for me as she was....

...The song ended and I stood up, not caring if my pants needed adjustment, not caring how abruptly I ended an admittedly fun evening. Bella stared at me, her chest heaving. 'Ok,' I said quietly. 'Time to say goodnight.'

Everyone else appeared more than happy to leave and got to exactly what we had in mind for ourselves. They were gone in seconds. We were alone. It was all I could do to not rip Bella's bikini from her body and take her over the couch."

Ecstasy

"I turned my back to him and leaned over the back of the couch. 'I'm sorry I teased you tonight, Edward. Take it out on me.' I pushed my ass towards him, looking at him over my shoulder in the way that made him crazy.

He whispered my name, his tone desperate, and came up behind me. He rubbed himself against my entrance, then grabbed my ass with both hands and pushed into me. I cried out at how hard he was, my need for him overwhelming me. He pulled himself all the way out, and I moaned, begging him to come into me again. He spanked me and I cried out in ecstasy. 'I bet you'd like my hard cock in you. You're so wet, Bella. I can tell how much you want it.' His voice was quiet, a soft undertone of love in the otherwise hard words."

Review by EJ Santry:

"I loved the family's reaction to Edward! I can't imagine spending decades watching someone being lonely and discontented, and then to see them in a complete state of serenity and bliss (see...I get the Blissward references now). Jasper's "it's unbelievable" was especially poignant.

The karaoke was fun, and this girl is not cool enough to NOT do it. I believe the starfish and I have some plans to embarrass ourselves in front of the Niagara Falls populous come Nov.

As for the lemon in this chapter... Not only was the actually getting down to business incredibly hot, but the anticipation before hand. Him running his hands over her body and lingering to breathe her in. GAH!"

Great quote via many reviewers:

"It is." Jasper breathed. "It's...unbelievable."

LYLS Chapter 14 - Mosaic

LYLS Ch 14 - Emmett Loses Bet by twisherry featuring Dorothy Perkins

Emmett Loses the Bet

"We all settled into the living room as Emmett entered the code for the song. I was chuckling over his outfit: he had squeezed into a pink sweater dress of Rosalie's, the fabric nearly ripping over his muscular body, the bottom barely covered the top of his thighs. The dress was a clear statement about the song. He glanced up and smirked at Edward, who was smiling happily, lounging in the chair. I looked over at Rosalie; her face was a mixture of excitement and curiosity. I sat on the floor next to her, leaning against the couch, feeling nervous for Emmett. I appeared to be alone in this sentiment....

...'And you're totally smokin' in pink cashmere, by the way.' Jasper said quietly from the couch. 'If I weren't already spoken for...' he raised his hand in claws, 'rawr.'

'Just wait until tomorrow, Jazz, we'll see whose smokin' then.' Emmett laughed.

'I'm going to rock it, whatever it is.' Jasper's voice was barely a whisper, a smile curling his lips. Alice whistled between her fingers and climbed on Jasper's lap."

Can't Get Enough

"He kissed my ear, face, neck, his eyes moving over my face, his need for me written all over his expression. 'I miss you,' his lips met mine, his tongue pushing into my mouth. 'I missed you today; I need more than just nights with you...we...fuck...' his body began trembling over me; I could tell he was close. 'We need a better balance.' He flipped us over so I was on top of him, his chest against mine as he sat up, his legs behind me.

I couldn't find words to respond in kind as I rolled my hips over him; my moans would have to suffice. His body against mine was driving me close to climax again, his hands in my hair holding my ear against his lips, his breath cold in my ear. 'I love you more than anything Bella, I need more of you. I'm insatiable...I can't get enough...please oh God I can feel you coming, yes...' I felt myself on the edge of continually falling, of orgasms coming up beneath me, consuming me. I couldn't even form words, realizing how much I missed his touch all day, my body needing him to consume me. I put my fingers below me, at the base of his cock, and squeezed his base between my index and middle fingers, constricting him. He cried out, 'Yes, harder...'"

Jasper Loses the Bet by twisherry on Polyvore.com

Jasper You Lose Too

"We stood in place, waiting for Jasper to emerge, everyone but Alice and Edward making bets on what he would be wearing. A Few minutes later he climbed from the boat and we all dissolved into hysterics. He had a gigantic blue and red feather headdress on top of his head; the bright plumes probably reached three feet ina 270 degree arc around his face. The entire band of the crown across his forehead was covered in green sequins. The headdress was clearly the focal point of his outfit, but it wasn't the only thing he had on. My eyes traveled down his sculpted torso, bare except for a couple of sparkly stickers over his nipples, and lower to a miniscule leopard print speedo. I blushed furiously; the speedo barely contained him. I shot Edward a look, 'Why?' He laughed, nodding to Alice's gaping expression. Apparently reality was better than the vision. Jasper's legs were bare, but his feet were covered in plush Homer Simpson slippers. I laughed out loud when I saw the slippers. He walked towards us, completely at ease, almost as if he were wearing his usual black jeans and t-shirt."

Sexy Moment on Surfboard via gkkmouse

"He lifted me onto the board, steadying it with his hand, pulling me to the edge and spreading my legs. Our weight dipped the end into the water; Edward lowered his face into the water, leaving only his golden eyes above the water line, his mouth against my clit, licking me hungrily. I laid back against the board, relishing the feel of his cold tongue flying over my sensitive flesh while the sun beat down on my naked body, my legs wrapped around his neck. As my orgasm approached, he slowly stroked the skin around my backside with his finger, gently pushing a finger into me, his eyes watching my face to measure my response. I groaned loudly, the sensation unbelievable, my climax hard around him, crying his name into the open air."

Bella and Jasper Have a Moment

"'Who, other than Alice is easiest for you to be around?'

'Emmett.' he said, and I was struck by the confidence of his reply. He interpreted my silence correctly and continued. 'He's a loud fun guy on the surface, but there is so much warmth there. Emmett has no pretenses and that is what I love about him; when he's happy, he's happy. When he's mad, he's mad. There aren't a lot of mosaic feelings there that I have to wade through.' He shrugged, smiling at me. 'He has better intentions than anyone. He loves unconditionally.'

He studied my face for a few more moments, causing a blush to creep over my cheeks. 'You're easy for me to be around in that sense. You are not complicated.' I felt the compliment in his words and smiled. 'And it will be easier...' he trailed off, turning his face away from me as the breeze picked up; I realized he was down-wind from me.

I was content talking to Jasper; I felt a rush of warmth and knew it came directly from me. He looked at me and smiled, touching my arm softly. 'Thank you for that.' He kissed the top of my head as he stood and walked down the beach towards Alice."

Review by 4everhis91:

"ok. I have to say this chapter had everything! I laughed so hard I cried and had to go clear my eyes before I could continue to read. Then the lemon hit... and boy it was tart but with a trusting sweetness that I could not peal myself away from. When you finished it off with some bonding with Jasper and a great big pat on the back for Emmett it sent this reding to the moon! If this is what you come up with after a block ... then by all means embrace the blocks and wait them out for the genius to surface :)BRAVO!"

Great quote via twisherry:

"'Bella you were dreaming about me. Your heartbeat matched how it is when I'm inside you. Baby, tell me about your dream,' his voice was a whisper, his hard fingers moved to my body, touching my wet skin."

LYLS Chapter 16 - Good For Us

Stitches

"'Bella, Bella.' Edward's voice was pained. 'Bella. Shit. Open your eyes.' My eyelids fluttered open and Edward grabbed my hand, pulling it against a towel on my head....

....His face was wracked with agony; I had never seen him like this . His face was inches from min. 'This may hurt a bit.' His voice was harsh, almost angry. He injected lidocaine into a couple different spots on my forehead as he held gauze to the cut. I had no idea how big the cut was, but judging from the blood on the towel I was holding, it was a pretty nasty gash. He cleaned the area with alcohol and iodine and opened the sterile suture kit."

Distract Me

"'Bella, get rid of the towel.' I looked down and threw it into the sink. 'Spread your legs.' His voice was a growl.

'What?' I wasn't sure that I head heard him right.

'Please, Bella, I need to smell you a different way. Spread your lets.' His voice was pleading, softer. I spread my legs. His eyes relaxed slightly. 'Distract me, now, please.' He was tortured, his hands steady as he began sewing my cut, but his eyes betrayed the feelings he was fighting....

....I pushed my index finger inside of me, feeling my own wetness mixed with Edward's semen inside of me from the middle of the night. I brought my finger to his lips drawing it along his mouth, looking into his eyes. 'I love you.'

He inhaled a tiny bit, his tongue touching his lower lip. I moaned reflexively. His eyes looked into mine; his expression still pained, but mixed with something else now...lust, but sexual lust. 'It's us It's both of us in you.' He said quickly....

....'More, Bella, please, Again.' I repeated my action, letting my fingers touch his lip then come to rest on his cheek."

Let Go via anntastic23

"'Edward, come here,' He didn't move. 'Edward, come here.' Something deep inside me told me what he needed. He turned and walked to me, his face tight. I pulled him into my arms and he stood, stiff against me, his arms not moving. I let go of him and laid back against the counter, my legs open against edge of the marble.

Worldessly, he pushed into me, and thrust himself against my hips as he whimpered softly. His eyes stared at his body thrusting in me. He didn't make a sound. His hands grabbed my hips, bruising me I knew. I didn't care. His eyes never left the sight of us coming together, never blinked, but I could see him inhaling deeply, see his face relax, his amber eyes soften.

'Yes, baby, let go...' I whispered."

Edward's Pain

His movements quickened, his legs shuddering behind me as he pushed hard against me, his hips bruising my ass I knew. I still didn't care. He cried out, a dry sob, as he pulsed in me, his eyes meeting mine for his climax, the pain on his face excruciating. 'I don't know how to do it!" He cried after he came into me, his head falling against my stomach. His arms pulled my body against his and carried me as he crumpled to the floor.

I wrapped my arms around his neck, kissing the cheeks, his lips, his neck, his ear, his collarbone. 'It helped having me aroused.' I said quietly. 'It helped your control.'

He nodded, looking me in the eye. The pain and fear in his eyes broke my heart."

Get on the Boat via gkkstitch

"Alice was waiting for us on the beach, her nervous energy palpable. 'Why didn't you wait ten minutes for Carlisle you stubborn bastard? You knew he was close.' She smacked him hard, but I could see relief on her face.

'You know why, Alice.' His words were a grumble. Grumpy Edward was rearing his head. His eyes met Alice's, and he growled to me. 'Get on the boat, Bella.'

'Excuse me?' I asked, shocked at his tone.

'Just get on the boat.' His voice was sharp. I didn't understand but saw Alice avoiding his gaze, clearly hiding something from him."

Time with Emmett via anntastic23

"Emmett smiled at me. 'I like this cabin much better. Come on, check it out.' He grabbed my hand and pulled me up the three steps onto the wide porch and opened the front door."

Promise Me

"I walked over to a patch of soft green moss and sat down...Emmett came over and joined me. We watched some birds above us, quiet in our thoughts...

...He looked over at me, his face suddenly serious. 'Bell, you have to promise me something, ok?'

'What's that, Emmett?'

'Promise me, because you're choosing this life, that you'll find the good in it. That you'll find something you love - other than me, of course,' his fingers pulled confidently at his shirt, 'and live for it. That you'll make the most out of what you can be. That you'll finally see yourself for who and what you are. Ok?'

I felt tears stinging my eyes at all his hopes for me, his expectations that I could be this person overwhelmed me. 'Emmett, I don't know how I'll feel after...it all just feels like a very big unknown. I can promise to try.' I sighed, looking at him. 'It makes me feel worlds better to know you'll be there.'"

Just Like Heaven via anntastic23

"He looked up at me and nodded slightly. His fingers began moving over the strings of the guitar, the opening chords of Just Like Heaven flowing gently into the room. I watched him, my heart rate picking up at the familiar, beautiful song. His version was slow, obviously acoustic. Every sound had stopped around me as his hands moved beautifully over the guitar strings. He began to sing, his eyes meeting mine every few moments. His voice was unearthly beautiful; I froze, watching him.

"He put the guitar down and held his arms out to me. I climbed into his lap, kissing his mouth with all of the love, hunger, reassurance, and need I could muster. His hands clung to me, his eyes watching me with such naked raw love. I felt tears falling down my cheeks.

'Soon.' He whispered against me. 'I promise you.'"

Dessert via anntastic23

"Esme cooked me the most unbelievable dinner.....The entire family joined me at the table, cracking jokes, telling stories. There was enough food to feed all of us and then some, but of course I was the only one eating. I felt several sets of male eyes on my mouth as I ate the strawberries off the cake before I noticed Edward shooting his brothers scolding looks. Jasper and Emmett left before us to build the bonfire. After dinner the rest of us all cleaned up in seconds, and whisked me down the beach to the fire pit, where a large fire was roaring into the otherwise dark night sky.

Family Bonding via anntastic23 and gkkmouse

"I looked around the fire at my family. 'You miss us already, don't you Bella?' Alice asked across the flames.

'I do!' I said, putting my hands over my face.

'Don't worry, kiddo. Edward will show you the time of your life as long as you're here.' Emmett smiled at me.

'I know.' I turned and winked at Edward, my heartbeat picking up, heavy in my chest.

He stood, his voice quiet, intense. 'Ok that's my cue. I'm taking my bride back to the house. Time for goodbyes.'

Everyone came and hugged me goodbye, telling me to have fun, be good, that they would see me in a few days. Emmett pulled me to him and I cried out in the pain of his crushing hug. Edward pulled him back, angry. Emmett's face was contrite. Some silent exchange occurred, Edward's face tighter than normal. 'I know,' Edward said, a low growl. 'She's tiny.' Emmett held out his fist silently as Edward bumped it with his own. The gesture was reassuring, brotherly."

Ravaged

"Edward pulled me up on his back as they all ran silently back towards the beach house. Edward and I waved from the door as they all walked towards the boat. He turned to me, closing the door against his back, leaning against it and staring at me.

'Are you ready to be ravaged, my little kitten?' He asked with a crooked smile on his face, his eyebrow cocked. He pulled his shirt over his head, his hard body gleaming in the dark room."

Review by vickitori303:

"There's a lot of blood and Carlisle isn't close enough to help. Edward had to do it all on his own and he did an amazing job. I love that Bella distracted him with her wetness combined with his sperm. I love that it helped. Your Bella is amazing, knowing just what to do to help Edward, letting him take her after all that he just went through, not caring and knowing that he was a bit forceful.

Thank you for her little adventure with Emmett. He is one of my favorite characters to read and you touched on one my favorite things about him, how much he loves life and how he sees the good in people. I love that she's getting to spend all this one on one time with each of the Cullen siblings.

I love that he sang here a song, I don't think he's ever sang to here before, only hummed to her. I love that was already preparing in his mind for her transformation. I thought the song was very fitting for them, I found myself getting a little teary eyed at their moment.

The camp fire was great. I like that Carlisle explained to Bella that they already discussed her transformation and the treaty with the wolves and that Jacob supported it, for her.

And then Emmett's eases the tension by making everyone laugh with old stories...haha."

Great quote via kassiah & twisherry:

"If one of you cold fuckers would actually bite me I might become a little bit graceful."

So here we are heading into the last chapter.  I sincerely hope that I can do it justice, as this is so near and dear to my heart in the FanFiction world.  I seriously wish so much that this was the change that Bella received, but I will forever just replace it in my mind, because I think Lola gave us all something so special with Chapter 17, that it is truly unmeasurable in my mind.  Please bear with me, as I try to come up with what I feel is the best I can do, I know that it will not compare at all, but I will try my hardest to represent it's awesomeness.

*Special thanks to anntastic23 for all of her help on Chapter 16.

LYLS Chapter 17 - Mine, Forever

I first want to apologize in advance for basically posting the entire chapter.  You have no idea how hard it was to cut even one single word.  I know that posting the entire chapter was not the format I originally set forth, but when it came to this chapter my heart just took over and I just decided I needed to be selfish and just give into myself and post what I was feeling.  Having said that, feel free to just look at the pretties, I'm sure if you are here, you have already read the story, but then that also means that you know how amazingly brilliant this chapter was, and I'm sure reading most of it again, would be as much of a treat to you as it was for me.  So, let's carry on.  I really hope that I've done this the justice it deserves.

xo Sherry

Chapter 17 - Mine, Forever

How Do You Want Me? via anntastic23

"'You're blushing, love.' He whispered...

...'Am I making you blush?'

'You are.' I smiled again, seeing him enjoy watching me squirm.

'How do you want me tonight?' His voice was low, sultry.

'Naked,' I whispered, watching his eyes move down my body.

'Do you want dirty Edward? Or do you want slow Edward?' He pushed himself away from the door, but did not walk towards me.

'Slow.' I musmured. Then, unsure: 'How do you want me?' I asked, I couldn't explain my nerves. I was hot, the heat suddenly oppressive.

'I want you how I always want you: wet, around me, moaning in my ear.' He smiled slowly, the look bordered on a snarl....

His breath let out in a low exhale, his hands falling limply to his side. 'You see yourself so clearly in some ways, and not in others. You are amazing.'

I blinked and looked away from him for a moment, trying to figure out his mood. I looked back at him and felt the worry in my face, heard the worry in my voice. 'Will you miss it?'

'I think I will be too busy worshipping you to miss anything.' His answer delivered without any hesitation. His eyes burned into me. Again I registered how badly he wanted me. Forever. I felt my cheeks warm at his answer. We both laughed.

I looked around the room, trying to find the invisible haze of tension settling around us. 'What...what is going on with you tonight?' I asked finally, quietly.

He smiled at me, trying to relax his tense body. 'I've tried to explain. I'm not doing a good job explaining. I fall more in love with you every day. I feel a little crazy.' He laughed, shaking his head. 'I can't express it well, and I am having a hard time containing it. I don't mean to be weird tonight. I just can't get over...this.' He pointed to the space surrounding me.

My voice was a whisper: 'Baby, come.' I felt relief knowing what he needed. I started walking backwards towards the bedroom, my hand reaching for him.

He walked towards me, enveloping me in his arms, his lips taking mine hungrily. 'Bella I need you too much.'

I Love You, Bella

"'Be naked with me now, Bella.' His voice was low over my shoulder, my heartbeat picking up slightly at his sudden close presence behind.

I turned to him and slowly removed my clothes. I stood before him as he slipped out of his jeans and boxers. He smiled at me before leading me softly to the bed. Edward climbed in next to me, pulling my body onto his to kiss me deeply for several minutes, his hands roaming over my back. He rolled us over so that we were facing each other.

'I love you, Bella.' He whispered to me.

I hummed my reply, kissing him, needing him to come into me. He pulled his face back to smile happily at me. His voice was tender and slow. 'I love how your voice sounds when you say my name. I love the way your fingers move when you are brushing a strand of hair from your face.' He kissed my nose. 'I love your laugh when I make a bad joke; it's sweeter and sillier than the laugh you make for my good ones. I love how your hands tremble when I play you your lullaby and how you stop breathing sometimes when you are listening to my voice.' He chuckled, kissing my neck. 'See? Breathe, Bella.'"

Everything

"His hands moved to my face his thumbs stroking my cheeks. 'I love how your eyes narrow at me when I tease you, so sexy and playful. I love the taste of you and the feel of your soft skin under my fingers. I love holding you while you sleep, but I love holding you when you're awake even more.'

I looked at him, resisting the urge to speak, sensing there was more he wanted to say. There was. Edward softly told me the story of how he fell in love with me, things I knew but we never talked about anymore. How he thought he hated me the first day he saw me, because he felt like a monster; he'd felt as though he had a safe life, a life he could predict and understand, and when I came into his world he had no control. He told me how he watched me, my quiet mannerisms, and my clumsy demeanor. He described how he was completely stupefied to find himself falling in love with me, he was scared, self-loathing, exhilarated, awkward, and lovesick. He told me how I surprised him at every turn, how I was fearless when he expected me to be terrified, how I was strong when he expected me to collapse, how I was sassy when he expected me to be intimidated, how I was forgiving when he expected me to be ruthless. His laugh was gorgeous next to my skin. He told me how he felt to be near me, how it made his throat burn, his body ache, his mind clouded. He told me how he struggled to be with me, to love me without hating himself. He told me how my lips felt against him the first time we kissed. He told me how much it tortured him to stop when I kissed him back, my arousal pushing into him like a fog. He described how I felt underneath him the first time we made love. He told me he knew my body better than I did, how he read my body better than he read anyone's mind.

Edward was silent for a minute, and then told me how sorry he was that he left me. I tried to stop him here but he pressed his lips to mine to silence me. He told me he would work every day to earn my forgiveness. He told me how sorry he was that he couldn't give me a family.

Then, his voice softened and he told me about his day, that he was proud of himself for being able to stitch me up, that he was sorry he snapped at me in the morning, but he had had a good talk with Alice. He told me that he loved seeing me with his family, that his family adored me, that he wanted me to see our future with them.

He told me everything.

I was mute; I was stunned into silence. He watched my face, his lips grazing my jaw.

'What is this about?' I couldn't stop the tears from spilling onto my cheeks and pushed them away, wanting to clear my vision.

He smiled at me, chuckling. 'I tell you those things - well, some variation at least - every night while you sleep.'

I pulled back from his face, blinking. 'While I sleep? Every night?'

He nodded, his expression shy. 'I figured I should say it to you when you're awake sometime. I figured that you might want to hear it.'"

Hard and Delicate

"I climbed on top of him, kissing him with abandon, pressing my hips into his, grabbing his hair hard with my hands. His hands hesitated for a moment before tangling in my hair, his body arching to mine. He moved beneath me; hips pushing up against my ass, his moans loud in my mouth. He was shaking. We were a tangle of limbs, hot and cold. Hard and delicate. I moved lower on his body, pulling his legs around my ribs as I pulled him into my mouth, bringing him to me, tasting him, his hands never leaving my skin until he was close, reaching back to grab a pillow. He groaned, pushing his hips against me, moving in my mouth, faster, his hands ripping the pillow underneath him."

You Are My World

"He pulled me up to him and flipped me onto my back, his eyes watching mine. 'Bella...' he whispered. 'So good...' he moved his hips against me. He waited a long moment, seeming to be silent communication with my body, his body coming back to life. He pushed into me slowly.

'There it is. There is my look.' He moaned, his eyes dark, erotic. 'I keep that look in my mind all day long.'....

...'I love you. I love you more than anything in this world,' I moaned, my body careening on the edge, his movements bringing me so close and holding me there. My body squeezed him, my legs pulling him deeper in me.

He gasped, his tongue drew a long path along my neck, setting my skin on fire, his lips speaking against my flesh.' Tell me you need me. Tell me how much...'

'I need you Edward. I need you so much. I can't exist without you. You are my world...'

'Forever, Bella,' he thrust into me, his hands on the side of my face, his lips still moving on my neck. 'Tell me you're mine forever, you belong to me.'

His voice was low, his breath fast, sucking up the air around me, gulping down the smell of my skin. My body was aching, throbbing against him. Realization pushed at the edge of my mind. I whispered, desperate for release, 'I am yours forever, my Edward.' He looked at my chest, the flush of climax creeping over my skin, my breath hitching in my throat. He smiled at me as my body twisted below him.

He brought his hand to my wet flesh, rubbing along the space where we came together. His fingers touched his lips then dragged against my neck, drenching my skin with my scent.

And then he closed his eyes and leaned back.

Edward closed his eyes while he was making love to me.

At that moment, I understood"

 Forever, Bella via anntastic23

"I knew that my husband had listened to me, and had meticulously planned to change me like this.

And in the same instant my orgasm came slamming down over me, arching my back up against my husband's cold body, Edward's fist crashed through the headboard, pulverizing the wall behind the bed. I cried his name and screamed my love for him as he bent to my neck."

EPOV

Listen

"I pushed into Bella, wathcing her eyes turn hooded, dizzy with need. Her heartbeat slowed, and then picked up. Slowed and picked up. I listened to the sounds I had memorized, saying goodbye to them, willing to rely only on her movements and soft groans from now on. Her expression drove me to distraction. I lived for the look she made when she felt me inside of her.

I listened to her body, not her heart. I wanted to make sure I knew her body and its movements better than she did, make sure that her heartbeat didn't matter, that I could play her body like ivory without sound.

And I did."

Whispering Love

"I inhaled deeply, whispering my love to her quietly. Her body tensed, her eyes stared at my face as her body began its journey towards climax. I slowed in her, needing to hear her voice, putting my hand against her warm pussy, her skin slippery with her arousal. I needed the smell of her to bring me back from her blood. I dragged my wet hand along her neck, hearing her begin to whimper in earnest, my body moving faster, letting her come."

Thirst

"The scent of her blood and arousal, of my semen on her lips, together with the feeling of my thirst finally given access to her throat, was overwhelming. I closed my eyes to slow my need and bent to her neck, my lips pressing against her pulse.

I wanted to scream.

I wanted to stop.

I wanted to change my mind. I slammed my fist into the bedframe.

She knew. She screamed out my name. She cried that she loved me.

GO!

"I let my teeth bury in her soft flesh, her blood rushed too fast into my mouth as she gasped beneath me. I pulled back before I let any into my throat, kissing her mouth hard, her blood touching her lips as I moaned my love for her, my voice a dry wracking sob. I screamed for the pain she was about to endure. Her hands pulled my head to her, her breath on my ear. 'Go,' she whispered.

'GO!', my mind screamed.

I bent and drank...

...The sound of her heart. The blood rushing into my mouth. All I could feel: the need to drain Bella.

I was killing her. Again.

Saving Bella

"And then:

Our meadow.

Bella's laugh. Bella buried in a parka standing by her truck. Bella's hand in a nervous gesture on her ear. Bella falling and my arms reaching out to catch her. Bella's soft mouth on mine, moaning my name. Bella's looking over her shoulder at me, her eyes pushing me to lose control.

And in that moment, I felt my body hard, still inside her. I heard her soft whimpers, the smell of me on her breath. I felt her body writhing beneath mine.

I opened my eyes. Bella's hair in my face. Bella's skin under my grip. Bella's blood on my lips, on her lips...

...'Carlisle.' I whispered. He burst into the room...

'It's all going as it should.' He reassured me, his face relaxing. 'Better, actually. She is quiet.'

I worked to not sob agianst her in relief, to not lose my mind over having not killed her. I resisted burying myself in her neck and crying dry sobs of joy. I pushed every thought I had towards reducing her pain. Towards getting her through the next few days.

I whispered to her about our future. I held her while she silently burned, having given her the last human experience I could manage: her sexy vampire cliche'.

I buried my face against her neck and waited for my wife, my life, my everything to come back to me.

Review by miztrezboo:

"Oh Lola that was brilliant! Why I didn't read it before MYMN is beyond me and its felt like a guilty sin to sit here all day and read it in one straight session.. not even stopping for food ;)
It was everything I think we ALL wanted to see or know that happened on Isle Esme without the appearance of the thing that we shall not speak of and her arrival in less than 9mths ;)

Brilliant. I loved the little moments she had with all her new family members, especially the talks with Jasper and Emmett. You made them even more real than they ever were in the books.

And the end.. the end was wonderful. That he finally listened to what she wanted, what she needed and succumbed to something that might have scared him, terrified even, but he still did it for her.

WONDERFUL STORY! ... now the question is whether to go back to work or indulge in the sequel right this second... ;)"

Review by manyafandom:

"Lola, Lola, Lola. I have read many a version of the honeymoon on Isle Esme and Bella's change. And this one was the best of the fucking best.

Edward's change in demeanor and how he acts around his family is so true to character and something we never got to really see in the books. He's light and in love as a newlywed should be. He knows what he is going to have to do. But he doesn't let it weigh on him or ruin his time with Bella. Also the way he was so in tune to Bella, her body and her needs is something that is realistic with the books. How he would take her physical cues and anticipate her needs.

And oh my holy fuck!! It was smutty and sweet and steamy and tender and loving and arousing and it's all so perfectly balanced and woven together to make this more than a smut story.

The Cullens are funny and welcoming and want Bella to be apart of their family, not for Edward's sake or as thank you for his change. But because of genuine affection and love that they all feel for her.

You so nailed it on the head with the Jasper/Bella friendship. That is exactly how I see their relation/friendship. Both being at ease with each other, both giving the other what they need without even knowing it.

This is fantastic and I thank you for sharing it."

Review by gkkstitch:

"As I read Twilight for the first time and watched them fall in love, I remarked to family and friends that I was glad SM wasn't taking the "easy way out." She let them be together. She let them share quiet nights in Bella's room. She didn't use the same old tired reasons why they shouldn't be together. As much as it killed me, I understand New Moon, and there were things done to make it a good story, if not an easy story. Eclipse and Breaking Dawn were again, good stories. Not easy stories. There were GREAT moments ("You don't want to be my wife" ::melt::)

...but this... your story... this is all how it could have been. Action? Not so much. Sorry for it's absence. No. The real world kinda sucks, some days more than others. In our imaginations, we need the happy stories, the emotional stories, the personal dramas, the intense love that just blows you away.

You gave us that with "Let Your Light Shine" and more. Edward's confession, "I love you more ever day, it's making me crazy." And the things he said to her, about how he fell in love with her, and ending with everything he did that day..." and then he shyly admits he says these things to her EVERY night, while she's sleeping. OMG, I fell in love with him myself! Just one little word... SHY in his admission exploded that scene right out of the atmosphere.

And then out of the galaxy, when we learn he planned all of it. That he was saying goodbye to her body's reactions, and his understanding that SHE KNEW what he was going to do, and breaking down in Carlisle's arms.

you. are. a. flippin'. GENIUS!"

Great quote via sandythesandstorm:

"I sobbed into Carlisle's neck. I didn't care that I was naked. I didn't care that Emmett was moving into the room, covering Bella's still form with a blanket, washing the blood from her neck with a wet rag. I didn't care that I was hysterical in my father's arms."

As much as it pains me to be done with Let Your Light Shine, we do still have the sequel.  I will post the CPOV of Chapter 17, next, I just thought it was appropriate to end here as Lola herself did, since this was so perfect in and of itself.  I hope everyone who is coming here is enjoying this journey, I know that I have had a blast doing this, and only wish I could make this into a movie, but alas, the pictures and our imaginations will have to do.  Thank you everyone who has told me they are enjoying this as much as I am, I sincerely appreciate it.

*Thank you so much to anntastic23 for help on Chapter 17, I could not have done this without you.